Oh dear. That feeling of being overwhelmed is coming on again. It’s a visitor that many of us have, and we all have various ways of coping. I knew it coming along last week. I was driving between appointments and listening to BBC Radio 4’s fabulous Woman’s Hour with Jenni Murray. As I listened without paying much attention, an Australian woman started to speak to me. Meshel Laurie, comedian, writer and Buddhist was talking about overload and busy-ness, and I began to cry. I really did. Oh my goodness.
I thought I’d conquered my feelings of being sad and depressed at times. I have found many good ways to help myself, but over the last few months, I seem to have forgotten them.
I’ve helped others, and I’ve forgotten myself.
We often do this, I think. I am so lucky, and I am grateful for all I have. And that makes me feel guilty for feeling sad. Been there?
So it’s time for me to slow down and do the things that make me feel good. Knitting, crochet and sewing. Visiting museums and libraries, walking in the country and being by the sea. And seeing a few friends. But not all at once.
My book Creative Wellbeing (I’m getting stressed about it!) isn’t finished yet. But that’s ok.
My lists are getting longer, so I’ve extended the time frame. Lists and plans make me feel better so that’s ok.
I’m not taking on any more commissions for a while. That’s ok.
When we are perceived as happy, optimistic, sunshine people, it is very difficult to admit to feeling sad.
I’m going to gather a few people together for a chat about wellbeing over tea and crochet. It might turn into something more structured like a course. But it might not. And that’s ok.
Be kind. To yourself too.